Divided Heart

I've had a hard time recovering from cousins week.

not because i'm tired

but because i miss them so much

and others

it's hard sometimes

when God has called your heart to a place

that is so far from

those you love

and all that you've known

for so long.

most of the time

my heart is so here

but at times

(especially summer and Christmas)

my heart is so divided.

reminded of all that i love

there

and

here.

my sis and i are like best friends

blessed, i know.

so i miss her

a little snippet of time together

makes me realize how much...

then, in my heart, i go there

and i spend way too much time

reminiscing of my sweet friends that are still there too.

but, if i think about going back,

i can't fathom it right now

because i know in the depths of my heart

He has planted us here.

my heart is here

so blessed, so full

yet divided.